Thursday, March 3, 2016

Best Intentions

  We are all too familiar with Pinterest and all of the wonderful and amazing DIY projects that you can find on just about any event or idea the mind can imagine.  Usually I just repin tons of recipes I will never cook, projects I will never make, and so many other topics that remind me I have 2 left hands, so to speak, when it comes to being crafty.

  I used to be a chronic list writer. I had notebooks, planners, sticky notes, and clipboards of well intentioned lists. Well, my hubby "lovingly" reminds me often, that when I kept those crazy, often unorganized lists, I managed to get more done and forgot way less... So I went to Pinterest for ideas... My 1st mistake, lol. I found the world of Filofax and also bullet journaling.  For those who have never heard of these, like me 5 months ago, Filofax is this very pretty, very organized planner system that is extremely customizable to anyone's needs. There is a Filofax company you can buy your starter system, or like many Pinterest poster's love to do, you can use a plain 3 ring binder and create these amazing planners that look similar to carefully executed scrapbooks. Bullet journals are plain graph composition books (usually) where there is a complex system of using bullets to create this wonderful system of lists using bullet points, colorful pens, highlighters, stickers, beautiful tapes, and so many eye pleasing tricks, with the sole purpose of keeping their day to day errands, calls, chores, etc all together in this beautifully laid out lists. 

  I just couldn't resist!!! I drank the koolaid and began to think " I CAN DO THIS!"  This was my 2nd mistake... I set out to gathering my needed supplies.  Stickers, sticky notes, markers, colorful binders, clips, pens, etc. I even purchased nice small plastic bins with snap lids to house my New stockpiles of crafty items. "I can really do this" I keep thinking.  I research and study, taking notes as If I am back in my college biology class. I was hyper-focused. For most of the month of February I use a practice journal to note all my to-do lists, calls,and errands and to figure out the best system for me.  As March speeds closer And closer I get so excited. I have changed from using a 2 inch 3 ring binder, because how would I even lug that thing around??? Then the graphed composition notebook, and finally, 2 days before March 1st, I find this small 3 ring binder and I fall in love.  The binder is portable but I can change the pages around, add tabbed dividers, and totally customise it. Visions of posting my beautiful, completely organized binder, dance through my head. I am now about as excited as a child on Christmas morning. March 1st can't get here fast enough.... Until it did. Insomnia struck the day before the end of February and then my semi-organised system started fraying, then by March 1st it all completely unraveled.  Now it is March 3rd and yet again, I am running on less than 2hours of sleep and my poor, brand New, colorful polka dotted, mini 3 ring binder sits on my side table collecting dust. 

  This binder and all that has gone on the month before, the planning, the excitement, and wonderful expectations is so much a picture of what our lives can sometimes be.  The binder being all our goals and plans and the frustration when things just don't turn out how we plan or picture. It can get to the point we just give up and feel like we just can't do something, long before we even start.

  The sad part of it all? It doesn't have to be that way. We get a New chance to start over and implement changes and work towards goals, every single day. Instead of planning to start working towards a goal until "the 1st of the month" or "until the timing is just perfect", we can start brick by brick TODAY!

Things won't always be perfect and that's okay. What is important is that we try. We start our new journey right now. We need to stop comparing ourselves to the Ideas of perfection that we see all over the internet and even on TV and just do what works for us and makes US happy. 

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